12月 29日

昨晚我这大头收入了一些讯息，
搞到我无法停止脑袋里不停的想着想着，
或许是我真的想太多，
也许是我太paranoid，
但也不代表我想象的不可能，
那如果真的是我想象的那样呢？
我该入和去面对？
如果顺起自然，
我能够好好不冲动的解决一切吗？

知道得不清不楚的感受很心苦，
心理总是觉得很烦，
很想查出真相，
又很害怕的去面对坏消息。

嗨~
我人身难道注定一直是悲伤的吗？

Merry X'mas!! 圣诞节快乐!!

圣诞节又到了，
希望大家过个美好的圣诞节，
我想无论你是不是基督徒也听过也常试过它吧。

在这里，
我想对我的布罗格的读者宣布，
我会再使用华文来写文章。
应该吧？

我也想说，
我以经得到藏在我心里的那个难题的答案 ，
就因为这样，
我也改了某些过去写的文章，
而我的未来计划也改变了一些。

8.12.10 Wed

With only two days left,
It feels like I have a lot to accomplish before I leave,
But what is it?
Almost done packing.
Looking forward?
For now, I would say half?
What is this mixed feeling?

I won't be replaced, will I?
Hope not.

Why does Lenz's Law always apply on me??

Hopefully,
I will have the answer to my own question
by the time I return.

30.11.10 Tue

When I'm wrong, ppl say " go apologise since it's your fault"

And when he's wrong, ppl say " you should let it go..it's probably a misunderstanding"

You ppl who say life's always fair n has its reasons to it =.=..
I don't get you.

The sound of the sea waves echoes through the shimmering darkness of the midnight..

29.11.10 Mon

I have a feeling that I might stop steering around..
due to failure? Hmmm..

I just don't have the confidence anymore..

29.11.10 Mon

If that's the way you think of me,
then I shall fulfill your wish.
I'll be the way you think of me.

I'll have you realise it yourself what you have done..
and till you do something about it.

Also, not forgetting to remember it for the rest of your life.

28.11.10 Sun

Today, happiness came in the morning and left at night.
No, it wasn't as simple as that.
Sadness & Sorrow kicked in.

I FEEL LIKE KILLING MYSELF THE MORE I LOOK AT IT!!

Looking at the questions is already demoralising enough..sigh

First time having this level of hatred n fear towards Maths.

Your greatest talent can end up being your greatest fear

Looks like I have one more reason to go there..Research n Study trip..

so stressed out now...i need to shout/sing in a very empty room with lots of echo!!! =.=

you have no idea how squishy the inside of the oyster is right now... I think it's more or less blended

24.11.10 Wed

Today,
the oyster shell opened wide.
They never understand..
and I don't think they ever will..probably?

Tonight,
as I was driving back,
a familiar scent strike my nose for a split second,
the scent, so intense and familiar,
the scent of your perfume.
And I was driving Lil'Red,
it made me think back everything.
Driving at one familiar speed,
the speed that I only drive when you're in the car.
As I reached the Y-junction,
I drove straight,
didn't realise it until I reach the circle,
yes, I drove at the familiar dark path with loads of humps again.
After that,
I drove as fast as I could to rush home,
just like I always did,
but only to find that my computer is not there!
AHAHAHA not able to go online then.

Tonight, I drove the way I used to drive.
It sure brings back memories.
At the same time, surprised me how much my driving style has changed.

21.11.10 Sun

How could I tell you
if about half (or more? or less?)of it
was because of you?

I drove pass your place again tonight with Lil'Red,
the paths we used to drive across late nights,
I'd say that was intentional.

Bless my CPU,
I've sent it to the 'hospital'.

17.11.10 Wed

Why do we keep doing this to each other?
Could it be ....
no.. nevermind..

Time to change..
Hopefully it will be easy..

The moment draws near..
Counting down..
Everything I planned..
Time to start launching those..

15.11.10 Mon

Exams may be over for me,
but your words are still really fresh in my mind,
I won't let you down =')

Just like when a circular cake is being cut and distributed,
and I've always only tasted the cream from the cream-fight..
Guess I will never really get a piece,
in a whole..

Lil' Red is back.. again..
welcome back!
and hopefully you will be fine,
and last for a long long time..

14.11.10 Sun

Tomorrow's the day,
When the clock strikes 11.45am,
I will smell freedom..
Wait, scratch that,
I could smell a less-stressful life ahead..
College life's ending..
The time we will lose contact with some of our school friends..
Hope the ties with the close ones will remain tight..
and that Electrophilic Substitution won't occur..
I'm fine with Electrophilic/Nucleophilic Addition depending on what element it is..
However, addition rarely occurs to Benzene ring..
so.. we shall see..

Hopefully everything will be fine..
I mean exam results..
Last paper tomorrow..
wuhooo~

Today's probably the last study group we're gonna have =(

11.11.10 Thurs

The other rock has been laid,
feeling so light and relaxed now,
it's like holiday already,
and it's time to put those plans to work soon,
for the better.

I'm probably just seen as the arc-line-drawer,
After joining the ends of the line,
I stand there and pause like an idiot,
Nobody seems to even care.
However, I think..
I drew the line too bold..
That it separates its Subsets from their original Sets..
Sorry, I'm the cause to it..

Today,
just a few mere words,
resurrected the moments in my head,
and followed by that,
I spent alone time somewhere far,
It certainly felt like running away,
I asked the wind to take those away,
Did it?
Maybe.. I'm not sure..

When you just suddenly broke down like that,
you render me lifeless,
as if I'm locked in a cage,
I'm sending you to a doctor probably tonight,
I hope you can be fixed.

Lost is the contact,
for days that felt really long,
has it reach two digits yet?

When you truly understand..
that there are various types of Cheese,
and finally realised what your Cheeses are,
and also their priorities to you,
only then you will be able to see the others and their Cheese.

08.11.10 Mon

Striving through this stressful period,
One heavy rock has been laid,
Second and last heavy rock in 2 days time,
I can smell freedom already,
Hopefully, all are well~ ..

1 week to go!! wuhoooo~!

I miss you, Lil Red..
When are you coming back?
I thought your new parts have arrived?
=(


Never felt completely within the circumference at all.

30.10.10 Sat

A moan that lets out the confusion at the sunny beach..

I sigh a lot, don't I?

Can't believe I leaked the me from deep inside tonight..

When you talk to me,
Everything just seems lighter,
But it gets heavier again,
When you stop talking to me,
Please don't lose contact..
Your reply to my message kinda cheer me up from all these negative thoughts these days..

Here I end this post with a smile :)
Whether it's a fake or real..it's up to you to decide..

26.10.10 Tues

Your scent...
Makes me think back...

25.10.10 Mon

Lil' Red is sick again =(

This morning..
I overslept..
Because I dreamt..
Of you..

I should start working even harder now..
Sorry, Mrs Florence..
For disappointing you..
I'll try to try my best..
As I promised..

Saying "No"..
Is it that difficult?
Maybe you haven't realise..
But our ties are slowly loosening..
And I guess I'm holding both ends together..
Well, who asked me to be the Letter in between..

And yet..
One of my stories were delivered again..
This time..
At the beach..

22.10.10 Fri

IT friggin' reminds me of " It's just fun to see him getting frustrated " ..

That's it...(okay.. I think I'm taking this line back? haha)

The word " Sorry " does not, at all, make me forget about it and the past..
In fact, it reminds me even more of it..
It is simply just the 'key' for me to forgive..
Like I said, the content is not the matter here..
It's the actions and feelings to it..
However, you are not to be blamed as you don't know anything about it..

21.10.10 Thurs

Keeping it all inside till it bursts..and if you're close during that lucky day, you might get to know some of the it...

Clearing the dust!!

Dear blog,
Sorry for abandoning you, leaving you in this shape. I will, at least for this season, make some posts. However, it won't be the posts like before in those story-forms. It will be in random words that probably very little people can understand. It will act as a diary or checkpoints for my mind, whenever I look back at them, they will remind me, make me recall and visualise everything again. Because you probably are the only place I can let my thoughts out at the moment. Thank you.

My dear Red has come back! Welcome back Red! :D ~

Happy Chinese New Year!!

Happy Chinese New Year!!
May the year of Tiger be Auspicious and Prosperous for Everyone!
Be Blessed with Fortune and Luck!
Be Blessed with Good Health!
Be Blessed with Excellent Exam Results!
Be Blessed with Tight Friendship!
Be Blessed with Endless Love!

Love,
Hean~

Happy New Year!!

Happy 2010 Everyone!!
Here, I wish everyone ALL THE BEST and LUCKSSS in EVERYTHING~~ !!
Sadly, school's reopening in a few days time. So, let us just enjoy the remaining days of the holiday!!
And to the ones having Hang Over right now, I would like to say "NICELY DONE! At least you had fun~" =D


p/s: Sorry for the Dead Blog. Will try to keep it alive x)

Love,
Hean~