What am I thinking right now?
People are bonded to each other differently. People don't just connect totally even if they spent a long long time together. The 'bond' I am talking about is not the bond as we speak, it's fate or destiny? In my mind, I see invisible coloured ribbon tying people together. Everyone's ribbon has a different colour. Not everyone have a rainbow coloured ribbon. And not every colour matches well with another. But somehow, there will always be a colour which matches your colour more.
For me, it feels nice to be acknowledged. Especially when I try new things out and when they worked out nicely. Naturally and unconsciously, I will seek and move towards it. Am I wrong for being as stated? Or am I wrong for not being able to think consciously?
Speaking about consciousness. When one is angered, is raising his/her vocal volume a conscious move? I wonder. Just like when you're drunk. I don't want to speak much about this matter. Let's move on.
Running away doesn't mean I'm not facing it. Running away doesn't mean I won't be returning. In fact, I run away all the time. Run away to buy time. Time for sorting out a plan. Or giving each other time to calm down. But I guess people thinks what I am doing is just wrong.
Why bother explaining when someone just keeps throwing words at you? Not even a single word you say will get into their heads. Perhaps if you give them some time, and give yourself some time as well, only then they will hear you out.
The more I go through, the closer I am to turning mute.
Here I have a wish. A wish to remove all my emotions and feelings.
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